New Year Resolutions – yes already….

Well I’m obviously making New Year resolutions already. Obviously….

Not because I want to though. But because other life stuff gets in the way from starting them now. My favourite (or most commonly used) expression at the moment is ‘When we move….’. All sorts of phrases finish that sentence opener at the moment. We’re hoping to move in the next two weeks but ‘When we move….’ will soon be replaced with ‘When we’re sorted…’, and then with ‘When we’ve decorated….’ and so on and so forth.

So what are these pre-determined resolutions of mine?

Of course my main one is to get back to writing. To start writing again.

The second is what’s on (almost) everyone’s list: to be better. Lose a bit of weight, exercise more, be healthier, be less stressed, do more fun things, travel more….etc etc.

Both these are being pushed further and further into that ever elusive tomorrow. It’s not (just) through procrastinating –  it’s due to other things – I promise.

As tomorrow never comes, however I’ll just have to start it now!

Well at least until after moving house, after my birthday (soon), after decorating the new house and getting everything fixed up to our standards, after a wedding (end of Oct), and then it’s getting everything ready for Christmas – oh wait, that’s right now were basically into new year territory! See what I mean?

I’m not procrastinating (not really) but sometimes – no matter how nice (or heart-breaking) life events and activities are, they really do put a stop to the whole writing thing. Especially when I’m just getting started on a new project. I don’t like doing things by halves. I want to put all my attention into my writing. Starting something new – it’s exciting – but it’s also a lot of work and I don’t want to start by doing little bits and come back to it at a later date and not understand what on earth I’ve written. So I know that I could start writing but I know (and would feel) that I wouldn’t be putting the effort into it that I would want to. And I fear that I wouldn’t enjoy it as much as I know I can do. I want my writing to be a pleasure not a burden. Something that I look forward to, something that I can dedicate some time to, not something that I have to cram into a busy (and rather stressed) schedule as at present.

Let’s just hope nothing new crops up in the New Year to prevent me from starting writing again. I’m really hoping there isn’t.

I do feel a little guilty not writing. It’s something that I love and something that I’ve promised to myself that I will find time for. It just so happens that that’s not really working out at present.

I’ll just have to say to myself, that no matter what crops up in the New Year (surely nothing can be as hectic as these next few weeks and months), I will write.

You’ve heard it folks (well read it). New Year = writing. I WILL write in the New Year no matter what life throws at me.

It’s been on the back burner for too long already. I will write. I will write. I will write.

I will write.

I WILL WRITE.

Adult versus ‘adulting’

When did you feel like an adult…? I met up with a friend I hadn’t seen for a while and so we were catching up. She’s just moved in to a new house that her and her husband have recently bought. And me and my partner (not husband) are in the process of buying our first home together too. So naturally our catch up was dominated by house-talk. Which is quite an adult conversation to have. But there’s a problem. I don’t know if I can call myself an adult. Going on my age of course I am. (Almost 30). But I’m not sure if I would refer to myself as an adult. I do adulting things. I adult. But can I comfortably call myself an adult? I’m just wondering at what stage did you realise – wow I’m an adult? I know I am but I’m just waiting for that realisation to hit me. I have a lot of ‘adulting’ things. House, job, pension. Maybe its not being married or having another life-form to look after whether pet or baby human. But the whole married thing, I can’t see that changing that much (me and my partner/boyfriend have been together for 10 years). Sometimes I just feel that I’m pretending being an adult. Yes we both have responsibilities and all that. But am I just pretending? For my friend is wasn’t getting married, emigrating to another country or even buying a house, it was the fact that she had a dog to look after. Another life form that needs her. I know I’m an adult. I just haven’t had that boom! you’re an adult yet. Did that happen to you? When did you realise that you’re an adult? – Because after all now ‘age is just a number’.

A body of one’s ‘peers’

A what’s going on in my life blog.

In July I got my letter informing me that I’d been called up for Jury Service, and so this coming Tuesday it’ll be my first day as a Juror! I’m actually looking forward to it. Well I am now anyway when I first got the letter through I really could have done without it, and was not happy about it at all.

But I thought I’d embrace it as an interesting life experience – and as an interesting fact about me and a story to tell at parties!

Everyone I’ve told have been pretty jealous and are interested to know more and be a juror themselves. I don’t know anyone who has done it before so it’s going to be even more interesting. I’ve been reading and researching a lot recently about what to except – initially a lot of waiting around apparently; waiting to be assigned to a particular case, so I’ll be looking through my book collection to decide what to read. There may well be a long time to wait so I may as well read the time away. I do have a book to finish but that may not take that long, and so it’s decision time. I’ll be wanting something interesting and engaging, a world I can escape into, but nothing too difficult to read as it may be quite distracting sat waiting with lots of other people in a waiting room. Decisions, decisions.

I’m also back at work after a – not long enough – summer break. It’s nice to get back to work for the people and the routine….Yes that’s right, I’ve been back at work for a week (and one day) then I’m off again. This time doing my ‘civic duty’ as a juror!!

So it’s (hopefully) going to be an interesting experience!!